Addicted - Simple Plan

It was June when I first met the person who got me ADDICTED again. :)

At first, we're not really close. I actually hate him at first.

I really really hate him that I called him by his first name, at his back, even when he was one of my boss back then. But after a month, things changed.

I don't know what happened but we suddenly got close to each other.

I found myself looking at the door, waiting for him to come in the office every morning.

My day is complete when I saw him in the morning. And I felt sick whenever his not around.

I know I'm acting weird. He's not even my type. But as time goes by, I just said to myself that he's the one who broke my standards.

My whole internship days was so awesome because I get to see him everyday.

There were butterflies in my stomach whenever I see him. Let's add the huge smile in my face. :D

I never thought I would feel it again after my ex boyfriend. He's the only one who made me feel that feeling again. Thanks to him. I proved that I still got my heart intact. He add colors to my world.

But days suddenly changed when my training ended.

I didn't get to see him more often.

My world went black and white again. :(

I missed him seven times a week, then six, five, four, .....

Until I can't recall the days we spent together.

"I heard you're doing okay

But I want you to know
I'm addic- I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?
I tried to make you happy
But you left anyway"

I know. I'm just ordinary for him. I know he don't feel the same 

He was just a candy covered with plastic.

Then one day, I discovered the he dated another girl.

They watched a movie together.

Actually, it was just my assumption that they dated. But they were together with one couple. So what will I think? It's a double date. :(

I discovered that in my very own henna brown eyes. :(

"I'm trying to forget that

I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it 
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over, can't forget what you said
And I never, want to do this again
Heartbreaker!!! Heartbreaker!! heartbreaker!!"

I really hate him when I knew that. I even drink a beer bottoms up that day.

But I knew better.

Even if i hate him, i'm ADDICTED to him.

Yeah. At least I'm totally aware of that.

"Since the day I met you

And after all we've been through
I'm still a ****, I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this
I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it 
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over, can't forget what you said
And I never, want to do this again
Heartbreaker!!! Heartbreaker!! heartbreaker!!

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine"

Yes. Until now I can't make him mine.

I don't know why I'm still waiting until now.

But one thing is for sure.

I'm ADDICTED to him.
He's like a drug to me and I just can't get enough.

I'm glad I'm addicted to him. :D

"I'm addicted to you, heartbreaker"

I LOVE his henna tattoo. :))

CIAD Family :)

Yesterday after class, me and Weng received a text from Jaime asking why we didn't come of Sir Glen's birthday. Shocked and looking so haggard because it was just after class. We replied that we were not informed. He said that we can still follow because they just got in Sir Glen's house.


Without considering things like it was already rush hour and riding a MRT is not that convenient, we didn't think twice. I asked how to get to Sir Glen's house and then Sir Glen's called. He instructed me the direction and we agreed to meet in a certain place and they'll come to fetch us. After having a conversation with him, we went to the restroom to freshen up a bit. It just took minutes  and we're ready to go.


After 1 hour, we arrived at the meeting place. I text Jaime to fetch us up. After waiting a few minutes, I saw Jaime walking towards us and the I saw Sir Ronel and Sir Glen sitting in the driver sit of his Pajero. Smiling at us. Ohh how I miss these people! :)


Five minutes after they fetch us, we finally arrived at Sir Glen's house. They are all in the garage with table in the middle and a videoke. It was so flattering they really missed us too. I saw it in their faces. I just smiled and waved at them.


It was November 2011 when I last saw my Credit Investigation and Appraisal Department family. I am so happy to see them again. We sang, laugh and do crazy things together. I am so blessed to meet them. I met them when I was an intern in Bank of Makati last June and up to now we still have communication. They are not like other people who easily forgets. And I'm happy to have them. :) I even sang three songs even if I really don't sing. Haha First time ever. :)


I'd like to share some pictures when I am as an intern back then.

We are green team back then. That's Me and Weng.

Desk C.I :)

Field C.I

Appraisers I LOVE! :)

With our Department Head. :)

with my Supervisor back then. :)

Foodtrip. :)

Now I will share some pictures of Sir Glen's birthday.

I love this group so much! :))

PS: I figure out something this day. Sometimes, when you think that you already accepted the truth, it's not enough to give up. It's better to see it in front of you. I am such a LOSER when it comes to you SC. Reality hurts and I surrender. :(

Jealousy monster in front of me :(

Yeah.
It's lunch break on my training.
Me and my friend decided to go online.


Last night, Me, Khevin and Chelle hang-out. Chelle mentioned that my ex's girlfriend just celebrated her 18th birthday. That thought came to my mind while I am online so checked my ex's Facebook. It's been a while since the last time I saw him and I did this .. stalking.


I did stalking once more and I REGRET it. :(
I saw pictures with them together. Pictures looks cute and in love and I ENVY it. That must have been ME. :(
January 30, that was their anniversary. I guess they were about to celebrate their 2 years or 3 years being a couple. How cute is that? They are starting to count years TOGETHER. I am also counting years, of being ALONE.


"Nobody wants to be lonely
Nobody wants to cry
My body's longing
To hold you
So bad it hurts inside
Time is precious and
It's slipping away
And I've been waiting
For you all of my life
(Oh)
Nobody wants to be lonely
So why (why),
Why don't you
Let me love you"

A song by Ricky Martin and Christina Aguilera entitled "Nobody wants to be Lonely" keeps playing.
That was the exact feeling I'm having right now. 


Yeah. None between me and my ex boyfriend wants to be lonely and cry. We should both move on to our own lives and find our own happiness. Well I guess, he already found his HAPPINESS but me? I'm still SEARCHING. I want to believe that I day, It will be in front of me. That I don't have to be jealous with those couples who are busy making memories together. Sharing tears and laughter.


I know that he is HAPPY now. This is what I've got for stalking him once more. :(

But hey! things between me and my ex is already a history, so please JEALOUSY MONSTER, BACK OFF! :D

All is well. :)

I didn't know why I wrote this thing. I envy them I know. But I know that I will forget this jealousy once I am with my friends and laughing out loud. Thanks because I still have them even if I am SINGLE. :D They COMPLETE me.

NO TO FORGERY! >:(

It was a wonderful day. Until something unexpected happened.


It was already 4:30pm. Me and my friends are goofing around the room while waiting for our next class, Taxation II. I was sitting pretty on my chair and laughing hard with my friends jokes.


It was Tuesday that day. It was also the day that we need to sign for our attendance in our COE (Cooperative on Education) subject. We were informed by my classmate that we should go and sign for our attendance. The COE Department was in the other building. Two buildings from our classroom. So, me and Wexi went to COE Dept.


We signed and we heard that it was also the dead line of submission for our placement form, parent's permit and  health record. (They said that these three documents were the requirements to pass the COE subject.) Thay also said that incomplete documents will not graduate. (We are graduating students this year) After hearing that, me and Wexi panicked. We already passed our placement form but the two other documents were still at our hands. We went back to our classroom and tell the news to the others. 


Problem is, our clinic is not signing our health permit because it's already January and we all started on our on the job training. Aside from that, we were all shocked because our professor set a dead line without any notice. She just declared a dead line and we all have to follow that. To think that she didn't attend a for 3 or more consecutive meetings. 


We're in a big deep shit and we need to do something about our health permit. So Wexi came up to the idea of FORGING our physician's signature. We're desperate y'know.


So we faked our health permit. Together with our two friends, Paolo and Joy.
After doing that bad deed, we came up to the decision that I will pass it since Wexi did the signing. I left the classroom without my professor noticing. I successfully passed the documents without any hassle. Then few minutes came, Joy and Paolo also came to pass their documents.


I came with them but I didn't enter the COE dept., anymore. I just waited them outside. After few minutes of waiting, I peeked on the department's window. I saw them with their heads down and my professor saying something. My heart beat faster. "This is bad." I thought.


To make the story short, my professor found that that the health record Joy and Paolo passed was fake. It is said that they need to undergo counseling. They even said that they might be expelled. My heart beats faster. What if my prof also found out that we also forge the signature? Will we graduate? I fear not to graduate. I don't want to disappoint my father.


I regret what we did.
I really regret it.
Until now my professor don't know the deed we did.
I promise not to do it again just to let me/us off the hook now.
I regret doing FORGERY!