Jealousy monster in front of me :(

Yeah.
It's lunch break on my training.
Me and my friend decided to go online.


Last night, Me, Khevin and Chelle hang-out. Chelle mentioned that my ex's girlfriend just celebrated her 18th birthday. That thought came to my mind while I am online so checked my ex's Facebook. It's been a while since the last time I saw him and I did this .. stalking.


I did stalking once more and I REGRET it. :(
I saw pictures with them together. Pictures looks cute and in love and I ENVY it. That must have been ME. :(
January 30, that was their anniversary. I guess they were about to celebrate their 2 years or 3 years being a couple. How cute is that? They are starting to count years TOGETHER. I am also counting years, of being ALONE.


"Nobody wants to be lonely
Nobody wants to cry
My body's longing
To hold you
So bad it hurts inside
Time is precious and
It's slipping away
And I've been waiting
For you all of my life
(Oh)
Nobody wants to be lonely
So why (why),
Why don't you
Let me love you"

A song by Ricky Martin and Christina Aguilera entitled "Nobody wants to be Lonely" keeps playing.
That was the exact feeling I'm having right now. 


Yeah. None between me and my ex boyfriend wants to be lonely and cry. We should both move on to our own lives and find our own happiness. Well I guess, he already found his HAPPINESS but me? I'm still SEARCHING. I want to believe that I day, It will be in front of me. That I don't have to be jealous with those couples who are busy making memories together. Sharing tears and laughter.


I know that he is HAPPY now. This is what I've got for stalking him once more. :(

But hey! things between me and my ex is already a history, so please JEALOUSY MONSTER, BACK OFF! :D

All is well. :)

I didn't know why I wrote this thing. I envy them I know. But I know that I will forget this jealousy once I am with my friends and laughing out loud. Thanks because I still have them even if I am SINGLE. :D They COMPLETE me.