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It's a cold morning today. No rain though.

But it seems like the sun will finally show up.

Rainy season is LOVE.

I love the rain because it is the time when all I want is to stare at the rain drops and think.

Yesterday, when the rain was pouring non-stop, I thought of some things.

I thought of what future is waiting there for me.

What kind of life I will be having.

When is our next hang-out.

What to do today.

Even the smallest thing like what kind of clothes I will wear.

Then, I received a text from a very good friend of mine, telling me about a good news. Her boyfriend gave her a ticket for a trip to Boracay on September as his birthday present to her.

Of course, I am happy for her.

It's one of the places my friend wants to go to.

Honestly, I envy her.

Not because of that trip because I know that I can go to that place too BUT because she already found the man of her life.

I am not the kind of person that is in a rush about love life.

Actually, that is not on my priority list right now.

I envy the kind of happiness that my friends have.

All of my friends seems happy.

Then I came up with a question for myself.

Am I happy?

Right now,

I don't really know what or how to answer that question.

Since my Mom left, i don't really know what real happiness is.

I know I should move on.

But can you blame me?

I am getting used to this feeling. ALONE.

Geez.

I want to be happy like my friends but it seems so hard.

I wanna be HAPPY for real.

Then I thought, how can a person say that s/he is happy?

It is when s/he has a lot of money?

When s/he has all new gadgets?

When s/he has a very good career?

When s/he can party all night?

When s/he already found the her/him destiny?

See?

This rain is not bringing me anywhere but to a lot of questions. Haha

In the end, I decided to just live life the way it is.

To wait for my own time to experience real happiness.

Just appreciate everything I have now.

I know that God has a plan for me.

I'll be holding on to my faith.

To pray, pray and pray.

Every thing will fall into places at the right time.

Right now, my top priority is finding a career that suits me.

I hope I will find it ASAP.

I'm bored to death y'know? ;)