That was the time when my mother died.
It was like I also died.
At least my mother is at peace now, unlike me, I'm still alive and breathing but deep inside me, a whole part of me died.
I know that it's not right.
Life goes on and I still have a life to live.
But could you blame me?
My mother is my everything.
She is the reason why I am still breathing.
The sad part is, when someone left you just feel LOST.
And I've been there.
After that incident in my life, I felt numb in everything.
My reason is: "The most devastating thing that could happen to a person already happened to me. I already felt the eternal pain and yet, I'm still breathing."
It thought me how to be strong.
But it seems that happiness also left me.
Yes. I'm happy whenever I'm with my friends, but at the end of the day, when it was the time to be left alone in my room, sadness is killing me.
Depressions attacks and I don't have anything left to do except to sleep with tears.
Days, months, until years have passed, I lived a life, but not a happy one.
I know I will never be whole again.
I'm still waiting that happiness will come back to me.
Real happiness.
And I hope that one day, there is this one person that will teach me HOW TO LOVE again.
PS: I have this swag friend who makes me smile. Why? Because he says he want to marry me. Haha Weird thing. Were not a couple and yet, he's telling me that kind of thing. See how crazy he is? But to remind myself. NEVER FALL FOR A SWAGGER. This is the right thing to do. I know.
*credits to dmagik89 who made the video and to youtube. :))
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